Friday, March 30, 2007

New News

Well, ya know that little girl Lillian Nicole that we were expecting end of Aug/first of Sept.? Well, she's now a he. We were told this past Monday that we are now having a boy. We have no name for a boy at all! Mark gets to pick the boy name, and I get to edit/shoot them down. Kinda like the president, and I will use my power to Pocket Veto, for sure. Hopefully we will have one picked out when the little guy gets here. When we were in the ultrasound room and found out that we are now having a boy, I tried to hold back the tears. However, it didn't last long as I could feel the little tears run down my cheek. I still attempted to shake it off and think it's ok...it's healthy and God blessed us with this baby. But, then it crossed my mind, oh no! How are we gonna tell Matt & Lisa. So, I turned to Mark who already started to hold my hand after we found out the news knowing that it kinda upseted us both and we were in total shock. Well, I turned to Mark and said, you have to tell your brother. He said, I know. I repeated myself, and he said, I know baby it'll be ok. (For those of you who don't know Mark's twin bro, Matt and his wife Lisa, lost thier baby boy full-term a little over a year ago around Christmas. Lisa didn't take the news to well when she found out we were pregnant. So, I hope this goes ok, but I don't know. It worries me a lot!) Then, I lost it. I mean I completely balled my eyes out to the point of almost hyperventilating. - If you know me and how I cry, then you know it is normally a silent cry and you wouldn't know I was crying unless I tried to speak, sniffed my nose, or you just looked at my face. But, when I am extremely upset I tend to let out little sounds -really catching my breath. Anyway, it was sad. I tried to keep thinking positive and well, but I was in complete shock. Just 3 weeks ago we were told it's a girl, eventhough the person said she wasn't saying 100%, but she's pretty darn sure. I showed it to my dr. and she confirmed that there was no doubt in her mind, that it was a girl. So, to be planning for the little one to come, my Mamaw Edwards already crocheting a sweater in lilac, and my mom and Helen already buying stuff and we already told everyone and their mom...now I have since called all of them back. Everyone was ok with the news, and I tried to be. Everyone kept saying, but it's healthy and that's all that matters, you'll have more kids, it'll be fine, boys are easier than girls anyway -less emotional, etc. But, I heard it all before and the sayings kept repeating itself. I just wanted to tell people to shut-up, of course I didn't. I talked to Mark about it and he was dealing a lot better with the news than me, eventhough he totally wanted a girl as much as I did. Well, I have been praying a lot about this with God. I have come to the realization that I think I was feeling loss. Like I had lost my baby, 'cause I got so attached to Lillian. I had to be thankful in what God gave me. So, I asked the Lord to help me and forgive me for not being as thankful as I should be. I really am thankful for my little boy. God really did give me the desires of my heart, it was just the desires as a young kid. I always wanted a boy first, to be a big brother and to look out for his sister. But, when i got pregnant, I wanted a girl. I know that Mark & I want to have many more kids, and now we have started we aren't stopping. I don't want more than 5, but who knows an exact #. We will just have them until we know when it's time to stop. I was thinking since I had such a hard time dealing with this new news at first, how I will handle post baby. Will I have post-partum? I hope not. I'll be a stay-at-home mom come August 16th, since that's my first official day that I'll be unemployed. :) I plan on staying at home for atleast a year, and then we will re-evaluate things after that. As much as I would love staying at home for the rest of our kids lives, I want to try to take one step at a time and see how things go for the first year. Well, I hope you don't read this and think I'm such a horrible person, but just know that shock kinda took over but I am now ok and I love my little boy that is growing inside me and loves to give his mommy heart burn and do sommersaults. He's a very acrobatic little guy, especially if I have some caffeine. By the way, you can totally have only 1 caffeine drink a day or 3-8oz cups of coffee a day. So, I'm Ok, plus I totally drink water all the time like I'm never gonna hve water again. Anyway, well I gtg now. I have to run errands, go dropoff my car at my in-laws so that Poppy (dad-in-law) can put on new front brakes. Well, I'll ttyl.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Stupid TIme Change & Hawaii

I had full intentions on giing to class yesterday. I stopped off to use the restroom before going to class and I asked one of my friends what time was it, and he
said after 1pm. I said, What?! Your clocks must be wrong, because I left
work at noon--I knew that I would be a little late. He said, no remember we
changed our clocks. But, I was still in disbelief and got out my cell
phone and sure enough he was right. I spent the afternoon thinking
what went wrong and then it clicked, I thought the computer at work
automaticlly updated the time, but it didn't which caused me to work
over an hour and miss class unknowingly. The first thing I did when I
got to work today was change the clocks, so hopefully I won't be late
to Dr. Roberts' class today. I also found out today that Daylight Savings Time got moved up 3 weeks early, so the computer has not yet adjusted it because it thinks it is not time to yet. Why can't the whole state of IN be on the same time and never change time. So, dumb!

On the other hand...
I had some major complications with booking my Hawaii trip. I totally thought it all got booked Sunday early evening through Cheaptickets. Well, I never got the comfirmed E-mail, so I called. Well, they never got it. Oh no! Mark's CC # was on their and everything..so if it ends up being charged twice someone will have to refund me over $1800 dollars! Well, On Monday I re-booked everything still got the same deal with the same flight and hotel and everything. I asked my BF, Erica, to go with me since I'll be 7mo. and staying in a hotel alone, but she wasn't able to due to a previous trip planned. So, I asked my good friend Amanda, and she said Yes! I'm sooo excited that she's going! I like Amanda a whole lot and we get along great. When I found out that Mark wouldn't be able to go due to Grad School, I thought I need to find someone to go with me. I would just feel safer if I had someone with me. So, I thought maybe my sis was going to go, but she has to have her tonsils out and have her cervix scraped again all done in one week. So, she wasn't able to go. Then I thought who could I ask that I would actually enjoy the trip with and not get annoyed with 1/2 way through. So, I asked Erica, since she's my BF and we've been on trips together before..and if we get annoyed with eachother it's not that big of a deal. We get over it, and love eachother. THen when Erica couldn't go, I asked Amanda. I love hanging out with her and we get along so great. I think it's funny that we sometimes start laughing for no reason and Levi will look at us both and wonder what in the heck are they laughing at, but we are just girls and laugh at silly things. I'm sooooooooooo Excited!!! I can't wait to go! I get the urge to pack already, but I can't pack yet...it's 3-4 mo away. Oh, incase you didn't know, My mom and Turk is finally getting married-in Hawaii on Diamond Head Beach on July 13th - their 18 yr. anniversary! I know we are going to the International Marketplace to do shopping and seeing somesort of show and we are going to see USS Arizona-Pearl Harbor...and enjoying the Beach! I don't want to get it all filled up, but a couple fun things is cool. We might go snorkeling, and the the aquarium..who knows.
Well, I gtg run errand and then go hang with my friend Amanda before I officiate Volleyball tonight. Oh, I got my IHSAA licence to officiate V-ball in H.S. and Jr. High. I'm very excited about that...something to do when I'm a stay at home mommy to bring home a side of bacon or two. It's 75 degrees today and I want to play tennis or sand v-ball or something!!!
Love ya,
Nikki

Thursday, March 1, 2007

I think I'm really getting the hang of this

So, after Lori e-mailed me on how to change few things, I have now explored how to do things on here. I've created links, wrote "about me," and eventhough I have yet to post pics I have found out how you do that. So...I really think I'm getting the hang of it. I'm the type of person that has to play around with something to figure it out. Afterall, that is how I learned to do a little bit in Photoshop on a MAC. I'm very proud of myself. So, I guess this means Erica...I won't be calling you today to ask how to post pics since I've figured it out. Thanks for all your help though. I love you and miss you tons! Have a good trip! Oh...guess what PRC which is a free clinic is having me come in to test the new ulrasound equipment for FREE. Yipee. It stinks that Mark won't be able to come, but my mom-in-law might after her dentist appt. So, that might be cool! It does make it hard that my mom isn't here though. I wish she could be here for all of these things, but I know she'll come down for the birth. I know, I know...I'm the one that moved 3 hours south, but I am definitely not planning on moving back to Indy. I love the people like my friends, family, church, etc., but I have no intentions on returning and if we do ever return it will be the southside and not the west, east, or northsides. Well, I promisedMark I would do our finances today, so I should probably go. I'll try to write later.
Love ya,
Nikki