Thursday, May 17, 2007

Too much things to do...and no time

So, this will be a very short post because I have no time seriously! Ok...so on Mother's Day Mark officially decided that we will name our son, Brayden Israel Brendel. I've really been wanting him to do this for sometime now. So, what a great mom's day gift! Right now I'm completely stressed from work. Everyday something else gets dropped in my lap and I just don't think i can do that task..or that it's not my responsibility..but ofcourse everything gets dropped in my lap because noone else wants to do it. I really don't have time to take on any more stuff. 1 week deadlines are ridiculous...totally not enought time to go through the past 3-5 years on finacial reports and then get into nitty gritty specifics..this will take like a month. I'm only here 25 hrs. a week! They offered to actually pay for my OT, but I said when can I work that? I work at my other job since you weren't able to give me full time here. That kinda shut them up. I think they just said it as a gesture and didn't mean it. They never remember birthdays, admin. prof. days, wk. anniversaries...then when they find out about them a few days later, they say oh..we will take you to lunch sometime...I think they owe me quite a few now. Yeah, I'll never see them. I really feel like I'm over worked, underappreciated, and not respected here, is that bad? I just keep saying...aug. 15th...just make it to Aug. 15th...then you don't have to worry about it anymore! Then, at my other job, my boss for the past 6 years is retiring and I'm doing a lot of work for her on the comp. 'cause she doesn't know how. Not that big of a deal really, but instead of keeping up with the towels, I have to be back there which is fine..but not ok when I want to go home at 5:30pm. 'cause I've been working since 8am straight with no break, not even lunch. I basically have to eat and work at the same time--not so much enjoyable. So, on top of all the stress from work I found out that my friend Stephen Diekmann died this past Sat., 5/12/07 of an apparent Heart Attack. He was 26! No heart condition, he was in rotc and I just saw him 2 1/2 weeks ago...crazy! So, I found out on Facebook of all places. My friend joined the group "We will miss Stephen Diekmann" I thought, where did he go? he doesn't go to Iraq for a couple of months. So, I clicked on the group to find that he died! at 26 yrs old! of a heart attack! What?! This is crazy to me! He had no heart cond. and wasn't taking drugs that we knew of. So, I'm at a lost for words and in a complete state of confusion. Sad thing is I missed everything...missed the showing and funeral because I didn't find out about it until 4pm. yesterday on Facebook. The funeral was yesterday at 11am and the showing was 2-8pm. on tue. Man, not even some of his closest friends knew what happened. I'm soo saddened by his death and so confused. No, I 'm not asking God why, 'cause we all die sometime and it's in His hands...but it just doesn't make sense to me. I also have been very frustrated with one of my french profs. I got a C for her class when I though I deserved a B. I didn't receive back grades for papers, poem critiques, or anything. It seemed as if she pulled my grades out of the air when i would ask what I received. I received back 3 out of 4 papers receiving A, B+, B...So, I was so confused on my C. Well, when i asked her to explain how she arrived at my final grade as a C because it didn't make sense to me, she got kinda mad at me and wrote me an e-mail saying that she was more than surprised that I was complaining of my grade. I wasn't complaining...I'm a C student - always have been with an occaisional A or B. But, when you work really hard and you are looking at the grades she gave you...it just didn't add up to a C, so I asked for an explanation. Well, She wrote a ticked off e-mail back and I wrote a humbling one back saying that I'm sorry that she felt as if I was complaining about my grade. I was just trying to figure out my grad on my own and it wasn't making sense to me. So, we will see how she responds to that e-mail. I still have to take her for a class eventually and I don't want to walk into her classroom and have her instantly be much harder on me, ya know? I know teaches don't play fav's in college---wrong! She likes men more. My friend Sean attended less than 25% of her class and he received an A, he didn't even do 1/2 the work. So, how am I receiving a C from her in a diff. class when I did all the work andreceived good marks for it. unbeknowngst to me! Anyway....I'm done venting. I gotta get back to work seriously! I have a Dr. Appt. on Monday! I might have to switch docs and I'm 25 weeks! More than 1/2 way...stupid medicaid! Well, I don't know what I'm doing about a doc situation...we will see. Lvoe ya, Nikki